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The Wire

Wire wrapped around my neck, and cold veins dripping blood.
All my emotions and beliefs are everything I've got.

Slice the skin in pieces then carve my name in red
Drop the knife and cut your hand, that is what you get.

Shred my lungs and breathless find a place to hide
Leave my body half-destroyed, but you can't kill my pride.

Asylum for insanity to lock it up with loss
Erase the each and every line you never fail to cross.

Shatter color of my eyes to make it pool of blue
Those hidden meanings, can't escape how they see you through.

Every story ends with 'Happy', fakeness with a theme
Leave my body laying hopeless, but you can't kill my dream.

Tighten chains around my neck to feel the pulsing heart
Paradox of life and mourning deceived us from the start.

Every ending with a 'cide' can mean a thing or two
Death and murder they will speak, they will see you through.

Faintest blood and broken bones, was that never enough?
Leave my body laying frozen, but you can't kill my love.

Leading wrong down path of wonder, how could you believe
That I was something weak and truthful, that I couldn't deceive?

Speak the unspoken, change the truth, and pull away your knife
This is how the fight can end, that's how we end our strife

Walk away, a bloody murder, leaving me behind
Watch my body rise to heaven, but you can't change my mind.

Presenting Your Death...

As much as we wish, this still couldn't last.
We pray and believe in the game on it's own.
But what was the cause will still stay unknown.

Whatever's believed, the memories kill
The wild and free will never stay still

Sinking the words only out of that book
Flipping the page, giving one last look
All words and all lines fulfilling the dream
As smooth as a song, however notes seem
Is the melody sung by a lone and dead voice?
But are we to decide? It was never our choice.

Stay still as the blood rushes out of your neck
Do not try to move, your whole body's a wreck
I won't say that I'm sorry, because I'm not at all
It's beautiful to watch you die as you crawl

You lied and you cheated, thought you could betray
But deceiver will always have a great price to pay
I know from experience, I know by my mind
You should have known, you have always been blind

You think just like me, but I've seen so much more
I am flying high while you lay on the floor

The past might be dark but the future is bright
You walk through the day as I seek through the night

We might be the same, but I'm the one still alive
I wasn't the one to be scared of the knife

You think that you know how relationship was
You think we were friends, you think we were close

As you see me at last, you think you could escape
But little you knew, it was your last mistake
Ironic, our story, you thought I was weak
You didn't notice the venom taking time for the leak

Once again I look down, and just smile at your death
You open your mouth, try to gasp for a breath
But the blood's been replaced by the venom of mine
This is what I call justice, it is never a crime

I had my own mind, I had my own pride
But all that you needed was somewhere to hide

As we held other's hand, was the feeling enough?
It never was, never is, and will never be love

Once In Life

Can't you see how I close my eyes while I'm bleeding?
You were always blind!
Can't you hear my heart-shattering cries, I'm screaming?
You still cannot find
Once in life, I feel fragile, and weak, and hopeless
Where did my strength go?
All the might that I gave off was always fake
Just putting on a show
If you knew what I feel you would be here, darling
I'm burning out inside!
For once in life, I feel lonely but you're not here
Only once in life!?
You never saw how I needed to just be rescued
But you were never here!
Never knew just how much I need you, honey
You will never hear!
Love is blind, because this is not what I'm feeling
It's just for myself
Close you eyes and remember my blood still flowing
Could you never help?!
I gave up so much time just for your oblivion
I helped you fight again!
But when I speak of my weakness you turn away
Leave me with my pain!
Burn the page with our pictures so happy, smiling
Is that what I feel now?
I think not; burn the picture I burn my feelings
"Happy" ends somehow
Shallow life, I fill up with the happy faces
Try to not be fake
I need you, tell me how to forget to feel rage
I'm making a mistake!
Because now all I need is to be in your arms
Have to feel the need!
More attach; disconnect me to save my heart
Filling up with greed
Empty now, I feel neither the hate nor content
The void will never fill
But the angst is much stronger than feeling happy
Feel anger by the will

Deceiver vs. Fallen

Kiss up to their curse right in front of my face
Have you never seen my hot tear's final trace?
How come you don't see what's in front of my eyes?
How come you don't see the deceiver's cold lies?

My heart and my mind what they are taking away
All they had to do was deceive and betray
At first seem so sweet, as if living on stage
Grow up and believe you're not acting your age

Open your eyes and compare me to them
No one in the world can really see who I am
But they are so perfect, so beautiful, best
Even if their souls do not come to rest
They're better than me, I can see it so clear
Deceiver and me will stand nowhere near

Be happy and live while I fight all alone
It's okay when I fight all the hurt on my own
But for your happiness there will be price to pay
All the love that we shared, I'll replace it with hate.

An Ode To Hate

It's okay to be sad
Always gloom, never glad
Well, come here, little girl
Let me show you the world

It's okay to still hate
Even love's always late

It's okay to deceive
To find love in relief

It's okay to default
When the love is our fault

It's okay to believe
That the love'll never leave

It's okay to rely
All the love is a lie

It's okay to stay home
For the love you're alone

It's okay to still cry
Love won't fall from the sky

It's okay to still love
When hate comes from above
Well, come here, little girl
Let me show you the world

When I Finally Bleed

The first time I have marked my skin
With nail sharp as your last stare
No blood came out, no thought at all
As if we'll ever start to care

Through this time I have tried to cause
The thoughts, the feelings to come out
Was pain the exit to these words?
Whatever were these painful scars about?

The second time I've marked my skin
I thought about what finally made me feel
Sweet blood shed out like passion does
When I found out what feelings always steal

These robbers take away the pain
They steal the guilt and take the blame
Pride overtakes, they kill the shame
Who are they now? What is their name?

Experience, never like the one
That I forget when I wake up
The scars will stay in me for long
When healing will not ever stop.

If I Were To Die Right Now

If I were to die right now
I'd rather you stab me to death
So you can feel what it's like
To waste my pathetic, last breath
So you would feel all my hate
So you can taste my regret
You will kill your soulmate
And that you will never forget
Just feel what it's like
To dream in every last kiss
And every touch that you gave
Was pure moment of bliss
All your forgotten promises
Were no more than remembered
You just tell all your lies
Heart as cold as December
Just spead all your gossip
And forget about me
Your soul is my poison
From which I'll never be free
You kiss all the others
And I cut, what a shame
Every word that you speak
Hides my feelings, they're tamed.
You used to be perfect
Your hair and your eyes
Your voice and your silence
Your screams and your cries
I dream and I see
Your face in the black
The darkness surrounding
There is no ther way back
Look what you've done
Don't you DARE even cry
You just stand there in silence
I don't want to know why
Just please, I will beg
Please, just finish me now
I will ask for my death
Like I begged for your love

Candles

Candle burning, not touched by the wind
Such a fragile situation
Cannot be affected by any of my seven sins
What a wonderful creation
Fire lit on another, candle so eternal
Ashamed of hot color
No tear can take away this instinct maternal
The shame is too hollow
Representing our friendship, red colors of fire
Candles burn with their pride
Follow behind you, my deepest desire
I will just be by your side
You fly, I fly
You break, I break
You cut, I cry
You bleed, I cry
You cut, I cut
You stop, I still
Keep going on...for you
Wind blows, candle dies
I die for you. You stand. You ignore...

Violet

Unknown
"Violet" It's calling me
Through this darkness I can't see
Unspoken
Mute, I cannot make a sound
So silent, as if underground
Unable
The forest is so dark inside
Is this the only place to hide?
Untouched
Black-haired, pale, like a doll
Am I that perfect after all?
Unsparing
The sin it wants me to commit
In blood-filled bathtub I still sit
Unbearable
I cut myself, just one last time
Farewell this last goodbye
Unwritten
Death-filled letter in my hand
On the ground it soon will land
Unsung
The voice that led me to the light
Is making me give up the fight
Unfulfilled
The shallow end, I close my eyes
I see my life just passing by
Uncomfortable
Lies painting like a bloody rain
Your words won't even be in vain
Unexcused
I still won't ever say a word
I can't this water is too cold
Unconcerned
Whine is th only sound I make
Each time I try, my voice will break
Unattached
The voice that kills me in the end
Will speak the message I will send
Unnecessary
My envy to the voice so deep
I dream of singing when I sleep
Uneasy
So I still lay here, broken mute
And then I hear the stunning flute
Unofficial
It's no machine, it's of my own
I hear my voice first time in long
Undone
So as my dream sinks down with me
Death overtakes with my first scream

Take The Dare

Heartbeat increasing
My heart is still beating
My long strands of hair
Spread evenly fair
Along my wet back
I suffer from lack
Of reasoning thought
I've tried and I've fought
A blade by my side
No place to hide
Water pouring on me
Soon blood will be free
Final decision
Decide with precision
I'm scared to fall
From pain over all
The moment is here
Blood filled with fear
I'm ready my mind
Filled with reason and fright
I'm ready to cry
Good-bye and good-bye
Slide
Leak
Cry

Questions?

Why does your heart have to be cold, hard stone?
Do you have to walk this path alone?
Do you have to fight this on your own?
You're all alone

When you stare in darkness, what you see?
Are you broken inside just like me?
Are you alone or did you just set me free?
You're just like me

And will your razor blade just lay there still?
How will you climb out if you just have no will?
Will all your dreams be shattered, unfulfilled?
You have no will

Did you just build this wall on purpose here?
Were you afraid to feel the merciless fear?
Do you feel exposed when all the sins come near?
You stand in fear

Now do you pay for doing all the good?
Will someone feel the cold right where you stood?
Will you destroy the hate like no one could?
Stay where you stood

Will someone hear and see what you still hide within?
But do they have the will to listen in?
Are you too selfish to let the both sides win?
Will someone listen in?

In Dream

In dream. You believe.
Want to start. Want to feel.
Just make up. All your sees.
Hear the rain. Hitting leaves.
You can love. You can fly.
You can soar. In the sky.
You make up. All your lies.
Then you live. Thinking 'Why?'
Want to get. What you want.
Can't get out. Now you're caught.
Don't wake up. All will fade.
All is gone. All away.
Just end life. So you can.
Live that dream. 'Till the end.
Make your choice. Suicide.
Now is time. To decide.
If you want. To keep dreaming.
Through the joy. You keep feeling.
Is it real? Is it fake?
Do you care? What you take?
Why we live? Why we lie?
Why can't I. Simply die?
Who needs me. Noone cries.
If I die. Realize.
Then I dream. Don't wake up.
Shy illusion. Doesn't stop.
Take the knife. Say good-bye.
Make your choice. Suicide.
Dream in sleep. The eternal.
Die away. That's my moral.
While I write. In my hand.
Feels sharp blade. I just stand.
Then I think. In my mind.
Make another. Way to die.
Maybe drown. In my blood.
Or take drug. One big shot?
Also hang. From the tree.
With tight rope. Around me.
Or just starve. And then purge.
Want to die. What an urge!
Or just shoot. In the head.
In the back? Heart instead.
Or just loose. All my friends.
My beloved. And my head.
I go crazy. I'm insane!
I just don't. Want to stay.
Among us. All this hate.
It's too bad. It's too late.

Untitled

Dark? Depressed?
Or just alone...?
My red heart
Feels like cold stone.
It feels so frozen,
So in sorrow
Maybe I'll feel
Good tomorrow?
I want to care
About my life.
It seems I can't
Pick up the knife.
Is it courage
That I can't?
Am I a coward
Where I stand?
Tired of anger
Tired of tears,
Just hate deceivers
And hopeless fears.
I am so sick
Of the world around me.
Do I deserve
To live happy and free?
Who am I
To get the gift
Of life, of joy?
I just need a lift....

The Faith And The Blade

You know that you want to
Ease pain and the sorrow;
But you stop and you say
That you will do it tomorrow.
Then final day comes,
You can't take it no more;
You hide to the bathroom
Then blood drips on the floor.
That is all that you need:
The Great Darkness takeover;
To take the sharp blade
Until you feel sober.
All that you wait is
For that day to come;
The morning, the night,
Wait for the rising sun.
Fall in your world,
"For one sec" you will say;
You can't face the truth:
You can't runaway!
Cut the same scar.
Now, think, what's the point?
You think and you feel
Just the same disappoint.
You want to impress
And you want that attention.
To cut: is an enter
To a way of expression.
Still can't face your faith;
You think I will stop you.
I'll just tell you to think:
How does it come through?
Make your own choice,
And you will finally get;
That faith comes through a smile
Not through your blade.

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The Wire

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"Shred my lungs and breathless find a place to hide

Leave my body half-destroyed, but you can't kill my pride." - The Wire

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